I could use any and all thoughts, prayers, good vibes, or whatever positivity there is out there right now.
As some of you may remember, I recently went on leave from my job so I could finally process an assault I’ve buried for far too long, and give myself the time and energy to clean up my life a little and rest before I go back to caring for others again.
Well, there have been some hiccups.
I lost my insurance, and I’m about to run out of the medication that helps keep me stable. I currently have no disability income coming in, and my savings are already running low. We’re trying to get everything sorted out, but right now I genuinely don’t know what this means for me.
I’m not ready to go back to work yet.
Even just these few weeks away have helped enormously. If I’m able to take my full leave through October, I really feel like it would give me the respite I need to recover and come back feeling more like myself again.
So I’m just nervous right now.
I want to keep processing all of my trauma, old and new. I want to move on from my past. I want my house cleared of the bad memories and the property my assaulter abandoned here. I want to look around my home and feel like it belongs to me again.
More than anything, I just want a fresh start in life.
So I’d appreciate any and all positivity aimed my way right now. And thank you so much to everyone who is here, and to everyone who has been following my story. Having people here who care, listen, and continue rooting for me gives me hope and a sense of purpose when I really need it.